I Was Struck by the Demon of Envy... and I Learned So Much

 

I knew nothing about envy—its danger, its signs, or what people call “possession.”

I never imagined I would be one of those who fall into its trap… or rather, that it would strike me without warning.

All I knew was that I was fine… and then suddenly, I wasn’t.

Everything changed so quickly: my health, my energy, my mood, even the way I saw life.

I began searching: Is it psychological? Physical? Just exhaustion? Depression?

But every medical test said the same thing: “There’s nothing wrong with you.”

And yet, I was living something very real, very painful, and deeply confusing.

That’s when my story began—with something I had never understood, and never even believed was real.

As I kept convincing myself that it was just exhaustion or temporary stress, I began to notice things I wasn’t used to…

I no longer felt rested, even on the calmest of days.

I would sleep, but wake up feeling drained.

I’d smile at people, but deep down, something inside me felt dimmed—like a light slowly fading.

The days passed, and this strange feeling kept growing: as if I was physically present, but my soul was tired—heavy—with no clear explanation.

There was no obvious problem, yet everything felt… off. Unbalanced. Not quite right.

That’s when the whisper of doubt crept in:

Something else is happening.

Something unseen… draining me, wearing me down, standing between me and myself.

I began my search for answers the way most people do—by turning to doctors.

I did every test they asked for. Bloodwork, scans, endless checkups… but the results always came back the same: “Everything looks fine.”

Some doctors suggested it might be psychological—anxiety, mild depression, stress.

Others simply said I needed rest or a change of routine.

People around me had their own interpretations: “You’re just overthinking.”

“It’s probably burnout.”

“Everyone goes through this.”

I tried what they recommended—exercise, supplements, calming teas, even counseling.

But deep down, I knew it wasn’t just that.

This wasn’t only in my head. It wasn’t only in my body. It felt like something was pressing down on my soul.

And when every solution failed to work, I was left in silence… with a thousand questions and no clear answer.

That confusion—the not knowing—was sometimes worse than the pain itself.

Then, little by little, I began to notice hidden threads connecting what I was going through to moments I had once thought insignificant.

I remembered those heavy stares that followed me for no apparent reason...

Those words said with a smile, yet carrying something strange behind them...

That sudden exhaustion after a simple conversation or a casual encounter with someone.

I started to connect the dots and ask myself:

Could this be envy?

Could it be that what I'm experiencing isn't just stress or fatigue, but harm caused by a soul that wishes for what I have to vanish?

It was hard to believe at first—especially for someone like me who had no knowledge of these things...

But the signs kept building, and the connections became clearer.

It wasn’t superstition.

It was a reality, creeping in silently... leaving its mark on the body, the mind, and the soul.

Through experience and what I have gone through, the features of this type of affliction linked to envy or admiration have started to become clear to me. I found that the symptoms it causes are not ordinary, and it is not easy to link them to something specific at first, because it does not reveal itself directly. It does not speak during ruqyah like other types might, but rather hides in a harmful silence, sneaking in through a look of admiration or deep envy. Sometimes, the envious person himself is the one who sends this devil.

What makes the matter confusing is that the symptoms move strangely through the body — pains and ailments that do not settle in one place, now here, now there. And despite all the tests and medical analyses, doctors confirm that nothing appears to be wrong. There is no clear organic explanation for what is happening. This makes it hard to diagnose, as its symptoms overlap with those of possession, magic, and the evil eye. It also reacts to verses used for all of these, which makes distinguishing between them a challenge in itself.

One recurring sign in many cases is that the person’s affairs seem to be strangely blocked — they struggle to find stable work, to move forward in marriage, or to achieve their goals, as if something is stopping them every time. It has also been observed that those afflicted with the devil of envy may experience an unusual increase in sexual desire, which becomes one of the ways the devil weakens the patient’s resolve and distracts them from treatment.

The devil assigned to envy is cunning in his whispers. He convinces the person that what they have is purely a physical illness, diverting them from considering ruqyah and spiritual treatment. So the person embarks on the wrong healing journey, far from the real root of the problem.

But the turning point comes during the first ruqyah session, or at the beginning of treatment, when something like an emotional explosion happens — sudden hysterical crying or a strong physical reaction. This is a sign that the devil has been harmed and shaken by the verses, although he still remains strong at that stage. With continued effort and patience, the intensity of the reaction begins to lessen — not because healing is complete, but because the devil has started to weaken, and his influence is gradually fading.

All of the above is not meant to frighten, but to help understand and diagnose the condition — to make you aware of what may be happening to you, so you don’t waste your time in confusion like I did at the beginning.

I invite you to watch the video on my YouTube channel (for Arabic speakers) about the symptoms of the envy-related devil, and to subscribe so you can stay updated with new content about this condition and how to deal with it. In the future, we will work on translating the content into English so that English speakers can also benefit from it.

This experience was not easy, but it was revealing. Over time, I began to learn a lot about myself and about the nature of what I was going through. It was no longer just a mysterious struggle — it took shape and became more defined. I started to see things more clearly, to understand what could open the door to harm, and what I needed to shut off. My reactions became more conscious, and I no longer let things pass as they used to. I began working on myself — on understanding my emotions, interpreting what was happening to me, and paying attention to what surrounds me. This experience opened a new door of awareness and changed how I viewed things I once thought were normal or insignificant.

Nothing happens by chance... What you're going through now may not be a punishment, but a subtle call to pause, to pay attention, and to see what you hadn’t noticed before. This pain could be a means through which God brings you closer to Him — a way to reconnect with yourself and awaken a sleeping awareness within you.

If you feel like you're experiencing something similar, don’t dismiss your feelings, and don’t ignore what your body and soul are trying to tell you. Take time to reflect, to read, and to protect yourself spiritually — true healing starts with being conscious of what’s happening inside you.

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